So
I wanted to use this post to quickly check-in with you guys and update you on
my life. February 26th I made the very
tough decision to quit my job. And no
this is not going in the direction of “And now I’m a full-time blogger!”…I
wish. I was at a place in my life where
it felt like everything was becoming monotonous and while everyone thought I
was absolutely insane for quitting “an amazing job” it just didn’t feel right
to stay. This old-fashioned idea that you
get a good job and work there, and only
there, until you die scared me to my core.
I know in true millennial mindset I believe I’m “special” and have high
expectations for EVERYTHING but there are so many things I want to see, and do,
and experience that the thought of being stuck in Tampa at a job that wasn’t
going anywhere gave me night terrors. I do want to backtrack briefly and say I do not regret moving to Tampa at
all. I moved there by myself in August
2014 from NY and met so many amazing people and learned so much working with
some phenomenal clinicians so this decision was not a product of
my environment it came from me. And then
when I heard about some issues going on with my family last October I knew it
was the right decision to quit my job and move back to NY. I’ve been back in Syracuse for about two
weeks now and it feels so great to be surrounded by my friends and family again
and this really feels like the right move at this moment for the trajectory I
want my life to go in. I am so lucky to
have such supportive friends and family who have helped me move and pack boxes,
and drive 19 hours from Tampa to Syracuse in a car with my slobbery dog (Lise,
I am forever indebted.) Even when they
thought I was crazy and couldn’t really see this “vision” and “plan” I kept
talking about they supported and believed in me anyway and I am eternally
grateful for that. And I’m proud of
myself for making it happen. It would
have been much easier to stay in Tampa and do the same old thing in a comfortable
job and lifestyle and while many may see moving back to your hometown as a step
backward I see it as a step forward in where I want to go. When I finally made the decision back in
January that I was going to do this and submitted my resignation it felt like
there were a million things to do and a hundred things that had to fall into
place to get me back to NY with a new job.
But it happened, it seriously all fell into place. And getting in my car with one of my best
friends and dog and passing that Florida state line brought on such a feeling of accomplishment. It felt like I
listened to my heart and my voice, instead of listening to what everyone else
wanted me to do, and that’s really what this year is all about for me. (You can check out my new year’s post HERE.) So sorry for the long blabbering post, but I
wanted to check-in with you guys to let you know what was going on and
I hope this post encourages you to listen to your own voice and go after what
you want. Have a fabulous weekend!!
“There
are people who put their dreams in a little box and say, ‘Yes, I’ve got dreams,
of course I’ve got dreams.’ Then they
put the box away and bring it out once in awhile to look in it, and yep,
they’re still there.”
-Emma
Bobeck
xoxo
Nicole